It’s like I’m on the verge of my future. I sit at the edge of my seat, broad face into the sun, the breeze.
There’s a whole world out there, wide and silent. The moment you’re celebrating a birthday in a dark, moody bar someone else is running for their life down a dusty dirt road. The flames go up for a stranger halfway around the world while you’re cozy inside listening to the rain beat down the window. There is a constant balancing of energy, weight pulled this way and that, echoing times past and present and just near enough upon which to exhale. Meanings and signs and symbols and explanations and possibilities can all be found but do they ultimately exist? Can I face the world and the continuation of time if there’s no reason for it all? Can I turn my back if there is?
It’s the rainy season here. In my past lives it was an inconvenience but here, it’s everyone’s sigh of relief. How perspective can change everything. I wonder how I so easily absorb into the soil upon which I step. When I was so decidedly an urbanite on the gritty Chicago streets. When I lazed away in Rome, smoked up in Denver, suburban mommed for my parents and brothers in Iowa. And now, here, what? In this small town that gets smaller as the days go on. I’ve said it over and over again how much I’m enjoying it here, but my heart still yearns for the city life; I’m always craving something.
1. BREAKFAST: Chocolate chia strawberry protein mousse with a base of coconut milk. It was last night’s dinner and quite filling, but fermented overnight in the fridge due to the probiotic-rich protein powder. It wasn’t the worst thing, but my coworker did comment on its funky smell and all the “weird” things I eat! coconut milk | coconut water | protein powder | frozen strawberries | maple syrup | chia seeds | pink salt | cacao powder | vanilla | cinnamon
2. MIDMORNING SNACK: Last week was unfairly doughnut-heavy at the office, so I brought a monochromatic fruit salad to offset the junk. Mangoes are my absolutely favorite fruit lately and pineapple is always a winner. Featuring a serving bowl I stole (inherited) from my grandma after her funeral in December.
3. LUNCH: Roasted butternut squash, blackened sweet peppers, steamed baby greens, and a fried egg. Seasoned with ginger, pink salt, pepper, and ground mustard.
4. SWEET BITE: Here’s an easy snack trick for when you don’t plan ahead and make a hundred energy balls for the freezer (because you’d eat them all on the first day anyway). Combine nut butter, rolled oats, vanilla, salt, cinnamon in a bowl and mix. Add chocolate if you have it. A deconstructed energy ball.
5. DINNER: Savory grits made with lotsa buttah, and a hash of sauteed vegetables, including rainbow carrots, zucchini, butternut squash, shiitake mushrooms, and baby greens. Seasoned with coconut aminos, hot sauce, paprika, pink salt, black pepper, and chili powder. The grits come together very simply by cooking non-GMO cornmeal with water, butter and salt in a small saucepan, like you would oatmeal.